When You Can't Do What You Love

So, it's been a long time since I posted. I think there are reasons, I but I can't really think of them. Camping, backpacking, life, depression- it seems like every time I have an idea of what to write, by the time I get home to actually write, the ideas I had are gone.

Honestly, the biggest reason is work. Since transitioning into my new position at work, all of my brain power is used up at there. Developing strategy, thinking critically, and actually using my head for what it's there for doesn't leave spare time/energy/power to write. Which is a really nice thing. I come home in the afternoon, make dinner. meditate, do yoga, sleep, exercise, masturbate, clean, whatever I want, but usually not brain intensive. I don't have time for The Bikery anymore (sorry), don't have time for a whole lot of dating, and don't have time for much of anything else. 

I have however, up until recently, managed to keep biking part of my routine. Bike camping, biking to work, long rides, etc., part of my life.

That's all going to change on Wednesday. I'm having a tympanoplasty procedure on my left ear. They are removing my ear and rebuilding my eardrum, which will require me drastically alter my lifestyle. I can't ride my bike for up to 8 weeks, can't fly, can't vigorously dance, and can't do anything dangerous for a long time.

I've tried to imagine what my life will look like for the next 8 weeks.

No bikes. At all. 

My friends have very generously stepped up to the plate and signed up to bring me meals during my recovery, which I sincerely appreciate. 

I don't even know how to say thank you. I guess I'll cross that bridge when it comes.